Sunday, March 8, 2009

Changing the time on our clocks forward is the worlds announcement that we must get ready for Spring. New beginnings. How I love that! I am more than ready. Not just for the sun to stay out a little longer, but for an opportunity to start all over. It has been a long winter, filled with many changes, not all good, not all happy, not all for the best. Some mistakes were made along the way, some hard lessons learned, some pain felt along the way.

I am working hard at this time to find some truthful meaning to my life, separating from people, things, and situations. Just recently, I discovered some patterns about myself that have led me away from true consciousness about how I want to live my life. It is hard to confront this reality. Frightening really. It has left me raw and with only myself to look at. Understanding that if I want change, positive change, then only I can be the change I want to see.

As I trudge along, the process and progress seems so very slow. Some days there is not an inkling of an answer. Those around me wish for more as I try so very hard to explain that I am frozen at the fork in the road wanting so desperately to choose a path that is right, a path that will bring great promise, yet I stand looking, seeking and still I stand at the fork, praying that someday I will understand and choose with great care and commitment the path that can be the only one for me.



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