"She is destined to devote her life to another.... Whether married or single this individual ultimately comes to learn that her life is a mission, dedicated to another soul needing more than she does. Her karmic lessons are in developing kindness and an understanding nature. As soon as she does this she is rewarded a thousand fold for all she gives." ~Karmic Astrology

This according to my husband is representative of the North node in the seventh House....I know I sound like I actually know what I am talking about. I don't. My understanding is naive and limited. I just read what he gives me. Part of this statement which is not shown above also states that for this individual trying to focus energy on the self only leads to misery.

What is interesting to me about this is that I have had three serious relationships in my life. All to men who I loved deeply and gave up much of who I was to fit into their lives. Often leaving me unfulfilled, empty and lonely. Seldom having my own needs met. The times that have felt the most nourishing to me were when I left the relationships and focused on me. I find that so often I take my role as a caregiver deeply and profoundly serious. My role may be that of nourishing the soul of others, but often I have found it not to be rewarding. I have been left stranded, standing in my own muck of sorrow wondering how I got there.

I am once again seeking to understand the choices I make in seeking my own self love, peace and happiness. Trying desperately to hold on to some form of integrity, the simple right to be me. I am told that my duty to the "other" is the only right path. If this is so, then I will end up right at the very beginning of all that I have believed was not right for me.